Despair

If only the world could see what I feel
then, would the world, know who I am
I've loved, lost and feared the world
for it is sometimes too much to bare

Control, power, is what I fear
for I am weak inside and full of pain
I shout and cry, but knowing
there is nobody there to hear me
I swallow the shame and anger
that lies beneath me

I am lost to reality and living in time
Though I am struggling through life
and all that it offers, I am only human
and that is what makes me . . . Me.

Still, I wish for the happiness and pleasure
that I have earned, but realize that, I have
not yet overcome the world's greatest challenge

Love! and how to accept it -
I am ready to face my fears

My Obsession

I thought of him, day after day, waiting for nights to come, with fear and great desire. Delusions, nightmares, an obsessive mind, a morbid romantic, struggling between fantasy and reality. I dreamed of love, and blood and death, tasting the copper, in my lips and hands. The beginning of this waltz, marked a lonely night. A dark room, a tale, a pair of emerald eyes.

He spoke of truths, and lies, the secrets of life, black-winged angels, demons in disguise. I felt his pain, the trouble in his heart; I thought I cared and just the same, I wanted to die. The wounded one, a man, a fiend, with the face of a child, I went to him on a fateful night. A trap, a cage, prison of death underground; days without end, cold nights and muffled cries.

...to be continued.

A Dream of Love

Eyes filled with wonder,

Yet so forlorn,

Our brittle lives washed with tears,

Here, where the fireweed takes root,

In the new grass,

Our love was born.

Our bodies naked, our flaws unfurled,

Entwined by hopes

That knew no bounds,

We drifted

Deep and far

From the blemished world,

That kept alive our childhood fears.